My Made-Up Hard Life

Raw thoughts as I navigate my life with depression


You know what? Sometimes I just want to say ‘Fuck this shit’. And I want to say it out loud and I want the whole world to hear it. I … Continue reading

January 1, 2018 · Leave a comment

Welcome 2018

…. Not.  You see, I haven’t posted in a long time, so you guys really don’t know what’s going on. I have been doing so good almost all year with … Continue reading

January 1, 2018 · 2 Comments


Well 2017, you were probably the best year since I was a teenager, but you know what? You still sucked.  ~James

December 29, 2017 · 6 Comments

A Good Ride

I’ve been on a pretty good ride over the last months. But then this last week I’ve been a little grumpy, and then got into an argument with my wife … Continue reading

November 13, 2017 · Leave a comment

My 9 year old son is just like me… And it’s scary

When life gets hard, he wants to give up. He says he hates his life. He says he wishes he wasn’t living. He’s only 9. He says stuff like that … Continue reading

September 23, 2017 · 1 Comment


I have been avoiding my feelings like the plague. Which is probably why I have avoided my blog for a while. I still don’t really want to talk about my … Continue reading

July 11, 2017 · Leave a comment

My Birthday Budweiser

Happy Birthday to me. Finally.

May 25, 2017 · Leave a comment


Today is my birthday. I don’t care. It’s just another day.  I tell myself this to try and not get my hopes up. I hide my birthday on Facebook so … Continue reading

May 25, 2017 · Leave a comment

The Advice They Give

This week, I was\am clearly struggling. I told my wife and my two best friends. My wife and one of my friends (in separate conversations) started naming all the good … Continue reading

May 19, 2017 · 1 Comment

Chris Cornell

The last time I was majorly depressed, Robin Williams killed himself. This time it was Chris Cornell. Kind of eery. I love Soundgarden, Temple of the Dog, and Audioslave.  ~James

May 18, 2017 · 1 Comment

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